Essential tips to keep in mind; especially at this day and age.
October’s here! How are you feeling guys? Christmas is just around the corner and decors are everywhere. ..at least here in my country. We celebrate pretty early. We like it festive and big.
Anyhow, I want to start the month right. So let’s get this up and running, shall we??
pointers for driving a car. Yep, I am learning how to drive.
to Closer by Chainsmokers. Totally love the vibe!
of what to grab for lunch. Suddenly craved for KFC’s fried chicken.
the strong perfume scent of my neighbor
that my driving test will be successful. It’s a few weeks away though, but I started reviewing as early as now. Wish me luck!
that October will be easygoing and less stressful.
our company shirt and shorts. It’s dress-down day.
to buy jeans and jeans. It’s been long since I upgraded my closet. Season sale please come…..!
a great massage. And a check-up to the dentist.
awesome. Just one more day!… and it’s (my) rest days again! Yay 🙂
I have thought of posting about this many times, but I would always end up discarding the drafts. Truth is, I don’t even know what to ask help for or how to explain it. For some, they might think it’s some petty issue. But it’s big deal for me.
My apologies if some stuff here would seem convoluted for you, but that’s the best way I can sum everything up.
If you have read my first few posts here, you would know by now that I got accepted in this teaching gig in Japan. I should say I am experienced for the job, but not for the ‘new life’ it offers. Sure, I want to work abroad. Who wouldn’t? I initially was too overjoyed of this fact, that I dismissed the underlying factors that might come with it. And seriously, I am now considering the idea of backing out. Why?
I have recently started processing some documents. I know, I know. Everyone’s been telling me it would be tedious, complicated, expensive, blah, blah. But honestly, I didn’t expect it to be this complex. I was losing hope, patience and vigor to continue. I even called my employer once, declaring this thought. I was glad they pushed me further, gave advice on what to do, but it doesn’t seem enough. At the moment, I am trying my best to focus at work. I don’t want it to disrupt me, or worse, destroy my mood.
I have met quite a few people saying the same thing; that I shouldn’t give up, and that it’s all part of the journey, and that it would all be worth it in the end. But h ow can I even know that? It is too much to bear right now. I know I shouldn’t be making sudden decisions when I am emotional because I might regret it after. But really, how easy is it to say that? I used to advise the same thing, but now I don’t know if I can do it myself.
To say it is difficult would be an understatement. Being away from my family for a minimum of a year makes my heart ache. I know this was bound to happen when I submitted my CV, but I was thinking of the benefits we would all be reaping if I do make it. But was it really worth it?
I shared this to my coworker in hopes of getting a sound advice. She said the very thing I don’t want to hear at this moment. I told her I have thought of quitting many times, but she herself failed getting the very job I was offered. Imagine her disgust at my ‘would-be’ decision. She said I am missing a big opportunity. It’s true, of course. But maybe it’s not for me. Or is it?
And now I don’t know what to do. I am off to the final few steps, and it might be crazy to stop this far. I don’t want to, really. But it’s like I’m being pushed to the edge. After all the time spent, money wasted on some sheets of nonsense(at least for me) paper, and what-not, I will be throwing it all away in the window. Was I to blame? Partly, yes. I let my inner self get the better of me again. And I hate myself for that. I was scrambling way too fast, and in a way, making the process longer. Ugh.
Thank you for reading this far. I don’t want to make this more lengthy as it should be, I just wanted to vent out. That’s the purpose of blogs, right? Okay, maybe vent wouldn’t be the best word. Let me rephrase: I just wanted to share my thoughts. Maybe someone out there can relate to me, and give me serious advice or suggestion. Anything is welcome. Thank you once again.
Dear John by Nicholas Sparks. I just saw the book after a long time while I was decluttering my mini bookshelf. The feels all over again! I remember seeing the movie first (with the ever-dashing Channing) then reading the book after. I’ve read it quite a few times, but enjoyed just the same.
some notes for my report. Not school report — but work report. We’ll have a short meeting later so I need to prep up.
to Charlie Puth’s songs….especially Marvin Gaye! Played it for the nth time now. Just lovin it!
about another long vacation. I will be using my remaining leave & sick credits before it expires. Torn between doing some documentation or relaxation.
my breakfast/lunch. Yep, I’m having my quick fix while typing this. Already had milk cereals earlier but I don’t know. I’m still starving.
for a pleasant schedule today. There’s some incentive for that, too.
to watch Train to Busan tomorrow (after work that is)! Everyone’s talking about it and I simply can’t wait. Read some reviews online and so far, so good. And oh, I honestly think Gong Yoo is one, fine man.
a lime green shirt, red jeans, and black cardigan. A little warm in here, though.
to go shopping! I badly need new jeans. Really!
more cash for some papers I am processing. It feels like a lifetime. Can it end sooner?
happy, simply because this whole week had been really productive. And the fact that I’m going to have my fave nilagang baka later?? Happiness 🙂
Happy Sunday, lovies!
I have decided to jump on the bandwagon, albeit late. I have read and seen a lot of this recently, but I have been contemplating whether to join or not. Well, let me give it a try.
READING other blogs that I am following, plus an email from my boss
WRITING this post
LISTENING to my coworkers ranting about our job. (yes, I am working on a Sunday)
THINKING of what to do on Thursday. I have an extra rest day!
SMELLING the yakisoba from the next room
WISHING that I can take a longer vacation soon
WEARING a pullover on a rainy day
LOVING the fact that it’s almost (my) weekend! Rawrrrrrrr
WANTING to relax and …. eat more!
FEELING cold. My pullover isn’t helping much. To think this isn’t winter yet.
There you have it. My first in the series. Hopefully I can keep up with this! 😉
Have a great Sunday everyone!